Social events like parties, basically they scare me. Its a fear of the unknown, it is part of who I am and some people understand, others simply dont. Over coming ones fears is not so easy to do.
One might think that surely events of a celebratory nature would not be something to be afraid of. For me it stems from the lack of experience, which in itself leads to a catch 22.
Lack of experience you are thinking? Yep. Throughout my life the number of parties I’ve been invited to I can count on one hand, and attended very few of those. Even my own birthday I dont bother with really, my wife insists we go out to lunch. I’m uncomfortable around large groups of people. I dont know what the decorum is in these events. Small groups of three to five, that’s OK. Beyond that it becomes daunting.
It is the way it is. I doubt I’ll ever change.